I want summerrrrr.

it's true. I want summer. although I'll be a little sad when the year ends, I gotta admit the nice weather is slowly making think that the freedom and sunnyness of summer is soooo worth it.

this weekend has been good so far.. saw alice in wonderland and did some quickie photoshoots that turned out pretty good.
next weekend will be a mixture of AGH D: and AHH :D because of NHD and Flogging Molly... sooo excited for my first really loud concert, and concert with trina! :D

on a final note, I really want this baby. Yeah jesse, you're slowly ripping off your artistic photographer face. XD
but fo srs.. I can just SEE myself running around with this baby and snappin memories. :D shang, i love you, but I wanna experiment with film very badly. and the idea of solid memories makes me happy. :D

HAPPY TIMEEEE

oh hell yes. except for a few tweaks and cosmetic additions, my NHD PROJECT IS DONE!!
HELL YEA BITCHES!!

this week hasn't been totally amazing or anything, but it has been full of giant reliefs one after another, so I'm grateful. I feel the stress pouring off me. :D
my best friend and I are talking again. Bishop and I finally talked after what was literally weeks of ignoring each other. NHD is off my back and I can play outside in the nice weather. :D
ahh bliss. I think I shall celebrate with a nice good sleep. I'm exhausted. But happy none the less.

Since I don't have a huge project on the back of my mind anymore, I think I'm gonna start crafting and sewing bigger things. I've been doing small hair things and headbands a lot, but I wanna make a freakin dress already damnit!
I'm gonna finally start it later this weekend or something.. and hope it does not miserably fail.

a long good sleep and a face mask to rid me of these hideous stress pimples now.
xoxo.

don't wanna talk, don't wanna talk about it.

NHD is nearing closer and closer. Am I done? uhh... not totally.
so these next few days before friday will be major cram days. not that I have much left, but still.
soo.. DON'T DISTRACT ME TOO MUCH! i get nothing done...

anyway, these past few days have been.. just alright.
I don't wanna sound like a weirdo hippie, but I think I'm getting closer to really starting to find myself. Like, I'm starting to understand myself better, and I'm appreciating things a lot more than I usually do. I guess part of me is finally growing up. I dunno. I've been seeing the growth and improvement, but I guess we all see things differently.

Also, I've been being a bit more spiritual lately. Our church had communion sunday. I don't usually even pay attention, and rather zone out all of church, but i actually LISTENED this time. and lemme tell ya, I'm glad I did. I got a lot of things off my chest that day, I even felt like God was actually listening. I want to be a better person on this earth, and in God's eyes. Don't think I'm a scary Jesus freak for saying that. I'm not, you guys should know me better. But I do think that a person can better themselves with the help of God.
I didn't really wanna share that, cause I know about 50% of my friends couldn't care less about God. But it's part of me, so suck it if you don't like it.

finally, if I'm acting mean or grouchy, it's just that I've been stressed out lately. Don't really want to go into it, cause I just don't feel like talking about it with just about anyone.
so yeah. Sorry if I'm moody. :/