breathing's just a rhythm :))

today was weird.
It was another day where I was kinda bipolar, I couldn't decide if I'd rather smile or cry.

it progressively got worse before it got better.
I cried for a while, hid in the downstairs bathtub when my mom got home so I could pull myself together. didn't happen.
finally talked to him, and everything progressively got better again. :)

I told him I was pathetic, and apologized for dumping the emo bucket on him. he said don't worry, he didn't mind and we all have to cry sometimes. (and we all do it in our own way, yeah, I mentioned my bathtub thannng.)
I don't feel scared to talk to him anymore, cause he likes to talk to me. I don't feel like I'm just annoying and I have one sided feelings anymore cause he said of course you're not annoying, and I like you alot too.
I told him he was the coolest, most real guy I've ever met. He said that meant a lot to him.
he said he was stressed all the time, cause that girl broke his heart.
I didn't say it, but I hope I can fix it. ;)

i taste blood.

today in a nutshell- I was a pirate, I was sleepy, and I was in a bad-ish mood.

Pirate-One of my eyes was still jacked up today, but instead of being retarded looking I wore one contact, thus the piratey ness of the day.

Sleepy- self explanatory. Sacrificed some lunch money for pop for today and tomorrow.

bad-ish mood- idk why. just a bad mood. I feel bad now cause I dumped some of it on bishop while I was texting him... will apologize for my whiny emotion dump tomorrow. Probably freaked him out.

I really hope tomorrow this bad mood goes away. I hate being like this. D:

holy god.

best. day. ever.
and school wasn't even fun. :))

Anne's house soon. And I'll be over there feeling like the happiest girl on earth. :))

sorry for the mush. that's how I feel right now though. mushy and happy and giggly. :DD
and obviously full of smiley faces :DD

\(.___.)/ *grabbing hands* GIMMEGIMME.

$24 tshirt of pure AWESOME. Pure Trance is probably one of the only mangas I can say I actually love, cause it's so different and awesome. I will own this shirt one day. @_@

I ♥ Gloomy Bear sooo hard.

BUFF MONSTER HAT. I NEED.

Best of both worlds, Stitch AND buff monster. SOO CUTE!! and so sold out and expensive...

I really, really want this shirt. Probably more that I want anything (clothing wise, psshhh people) right now. Buff Monster NEVER makes tshirts. NEVERRRR. And I freakin' heart this shirt sooo the want is hella strong.
(plus buff monster himself makes these... so he TOUCHED them.. makes the want even STRONGER I TELL YOU!!)

school this week has been pretty aiiiiight. Nice to see all my friendsies once again, even though I'm having trouble getting back into the right sleeping habits. I pretty much just stay up till 1-3AM, and wake up at 5 AM and hate myself.
still in a really crafty mood lately. I have soooo many sketches of things to make and customize, but sadly I need some supplies before I start the ones I want to do most.

Also, I still need an idea for the second day of Naka Kon. the little voice inside me REALLY wants something lolita INSPIRED (I stress the inspired cause there's nooooo way I can do full on lolita).

Anddd, I need to decide on what the hell I'm doing for National History Day. I'm torn between an exhibit and performance.
bleh. this whole NHD thing is gaaay.

1/365 and some other stuff

1/365
one of my worst enemies, the alarm clock. I think I like it better in this acid-like version of it though..
I WAS planning on posting a big rant about having to go to school tomorrow, but uh, now that it's been canceled... I have nothing to complain about. WOO!

In other news, I was hand sewing and cutting felt all day.
creations:

leopard print pin type thing made with some random fabric I found.

OH MAH GAWD this thing was a pain in my ass. the needles we have are kinda fat, so half the beads I was gonna use for the sprinkles wouldn't fit thru. soo it was lots of guessing and getting shit stuck on the needle. it took forever.
buuut cuteness rules all that out. ;)

n finally....

GLOOMY BEAR HOODIE IS COMPLETE!!
I was worried about sewing something in the wrong place or crooked or something, so I managed to use a balloon as the "head" to hold the hood in place. I was very surprised I never popped it!

ahhhh it turned out so cute. LOOK AT THAT POMPOM TAIL!!

woo.

lol.
for a rip off of a $130 jacket, I'd say it's pretty cute. not totally done yet, but getting very close. it's all pinned together right now, so I just have to sew it all together and add the cute pompom tail. :D
also need to sew like, 20382129018900 itouch cases and bows, not to mention some other craft ideas.
so tomorrow will probs be all about crafting, sewing, raspberry tea and pasta. :D
andddd about 365. cause I decided to start that up again. and attempt to finish it. will start that tomorrow. :D

Already wantin' crap and the year just started...

DAYUMMM I WANT THIS CRAP!!

I think I have a right to lust after this $130 gloomy bear x baby the stars shine bright hoodie type thing.. LOOK HOW EFFIN CUTE IT IS!!
there's a possibility of taking this idea and possibly making it myself with a similar cut off hoodie.. I have a yellow one to practice on..

Once again, totally cute. I'm into the nerd glasses yo.

the best of both worlds... hello kitty, neon pink, and nerd glasses. I want this bad.

okay so it's a little much and sorta weird.. but you get to pick your colors and I think it's pretty cute, plus it's totally unique.

onto non material things...
for being the first day of a new year, today wasn't as good as it could have been.
the main reason being I was stuck in bed, or on the toilet hating my life for a good 2 to 3 hours. YOU SUCK BAD PERIODS!! -shakes fist in anger towards crotchal regions-
buuuut after the pain killers kicked in all was good in the neighborhood. and I felt good enough to get on the internet and decide what I would love to waste money on, as you can see. :D

things to do tonight:
-paint nails
-CRAFTS!! got lots o' ideas.
-sketch remaining craft ideas

sure to be a peaceful and nice night. until the pain killers die down. D: