breathing's just a rhythm :))

today was weird.
It was another day where I was kinda bipolar, I couldn't decide if I'd rather smile or cry.

it progressively got worse before it got better.
I cried for a while, hid in the downstairs bathtub when my mom got home so I could pull myself together. didn't happen.
finally talked to him, and everything progressively got better again. :)

I told him I was pathetic, and apologized for dumping the emo bucket on him. he said don't worry, he didn't mind and we all have to cry sometimes. (and we all do it in our own way, yeah, I mentioned my bathtub thannng.)
I don't feel scared to talk to him anymore, cause he likes to talk to me. I don't feel like I'm just annoying and I have one sided feelings anymore cause he said of course you're not annoying, and I like you alot too.
I told him he was the coolest, most real guy I've ever met. He said that meant a lot to him.
he said he was stressed all the time, cause that girl broke his heart.
I didn't say it, but I hope I can fix it. ;)