it's not that I'm letting go of you, it's that I don't know what to do

today: 20% work, 80% useless shit :D

20% was spent on a little bit of NHD. aka, I got just about nothing done. and it's due on Wednesday. I'm pretty much screwed at this point. I'm too lazy when it comes to school stuff. I just don't care. which is starting to really screw my grades. not that I care about those either.

the remaining 80% of my day was spent singing and having a good time with my guitar. I love it again. Actually, I don't really think I ever loved it, that worthless teacher I had for all those years really ruined it for me for a while there. Looking back at it, I wish I would have had the balls to tell my parents I hated her and lessons earlier. Lots of money and time wasted.
but oh well. I'm just glad I'm finally using it for stuff I LIKE now. like 'it's the end of the world as we know it'. seriously, that song is the shit to sing and play. I'm still getting down doing so at the same time, the lyrics in that song go effing fast. but it's fun.
I'm starting to slowly finish these songs I started. chances are good no one will ever hear them, but it's still fun to write them.
the two I started a few days ago are like part one and two. they go together. A side and B side.
A side is the love song. It's happy and cheery and fun to sing. the B side is the heartbreak, I wanna kick ass now part. It's also pretty happy sounding, so that the lyrics and the beat and singing totally differ from each other. I like it.
with the B side, it seems too early to finish for me. so I'm gonna get the A side done first. when I need the B side finished, it'll get done. and be better than what it would be if I finished it now. ;)

also watched Milk today. such a good movie. I cried at the end, after I yelled "WHAT THE FUCK?!?" all loud. they're were parts in the movie that surprised me. it was even more sad when you take into consideration the movie was a true story. All of the characters were real people and casted perfectly. Hell, they looked like the real peeps!
hella good movie.

last thing, I got my giveaway shirt yesterday!! I was starting to think I'd never get it, lol. It's so purdy and cuuute. 8D